me and Capote
"when the phone rings it's usually a man's voice and it's like most other voices because it usually says the same thing: "are you Henry Chinaski, the writer?" "i'm a sometimes writer." "listen, i'm surprised you're listed. well, i want to come over and talk to you, have a few beers with you." "why?" i ask. "i just want to talk." "you don't understand," i say, "there's nothing to talk about. talking brings me down." "but i like your writing." "you can have that." "i just want to come over and talk awhile." "i don't want to talk." "then why are you listed?" "i like to fuck women." "is that why you write?" "i'm like Truman Capote. i write to pay the rent." i hang up. they phone back. i hang up. i don't see what writing has to do with conversation. i also don't see what writing has to do with my getting 3 bad books of poetry a week in the mail. i'm not a priest. i'm not a guru. i probably have more bad moments and self- doubt than any of those who phone me. but when there's a knock on the door and a creature of beauty enters (female) (after phoning) hesitant smiling with delightful curves and magic movements i realize she is more dangerous than all the armies of time and i know i don't write my poems for that and then i'm not sure and then i don't know again and then i forget about knowing i get her a drink then go into the bedroom and take the phone off the hook. that's the best way to get unlisted." -charles bukowski
2002-12-27 | 7:59 p.m.
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