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had it stolen lunch moment old face stark and leering calms ocean and you could you could sail just that one way and nothing back or come around to this we talk like nothing went at all, not time passed and you shouldn't start like she opened her calm or shattered eyes said: "wow" and more like that than you think, i just shined army eyes at her and we randomed on a bit before she stalked off and found loverboy number 12,006 but i survived and a hundred years is not too long, you know.

so i closed up shop put away a book and stood, placing things, half-neat in a bag, marks end of a sitting down and walks slow and comfortable outside this is how it's happening and sooner this than anything at all, with just a bit more coming along, you can tell me you can send it back just like you said, i watched her walk to her car and she was suddenly an old face old legs branch arms with ligament fingers and she could open doors but chose not to and so went forth, turning ignition switches was back in school called coastergilr i'm sure as soon as she wa sin the car and said "you'll never guess, you'll never guess" and they both had a few shared words moved on knew something had it down like patted paper and this is how strange things happen without error or momenbt unintended and you can still see in me, how you blame me for so much and so forth, you had a mean spritied cat, lady- nothing else.

so most things, you talk solid language hides you out and you can think, long as you want, that things were your way but i had them hidthem this is all passing moments, lived in arching back countires for a while with you and you're friends the life of heilin or waht he calimed but he was a liar and so are you, just moments passed and event hough even though you were there with your straight as sticks pubic hair and your over-szed nipples and ass that claimed more than it had to offer but you were just you were just the sideshow (it's hard to explain because you don't understand) but you were so quick to pull down the shoulders of your dress, but that was oh so long ago so long ago you begged me inside you and only then, happy as happens you were moving with phrases like shower-worthy which meant something about lifting you up or making you feel like more than you were but you azlways did planty of worrying over yourself didn't you?

but not like this or not like more, i watched you walk away the way you always did and truth be told, i was always glad for that, always glad it was happening, you made storms blow over but not for good not for the good of anyone but your sex and hard drive cold wind on the way home and youc an count the sins against you on a na abacus, but none of it none of it is more than you deservedthe last time you dialed my number the first time, you were the second part how i watched her put her tongue in your mouth and i liked it because it was her, you were just there, but words, you showed a few rare and good enough tiems to call yoruself a freind and iremember the hand holding on the page with nothing less nothing more than sardine can cynicism and you could leave it the fuck out----

----like you should----

but no, and that's how you camne to be there, carry a few boxes mostly just be the studious girlfriend type though right and you could sell a fool anywhere south of santa and that's all why that's all how it happened: remember kurt?

and so, with it, you happen like covered hair and you can call all the coastergirls you want and i'll smile broadband smiles across long untired oceans with no new releif it's all been had getting you gone was enough i suppose though i never trapped it down like that, just sat here, worked pages over and left it in storybook words (you've got them) the ones i gave you anyway i once sold a hundred cd's to buy you a brithday gift and all you say now is "wow" good luck, getting gone is something else, take it like you always did: in the ass and down.

you're just lifetimes laying across stale carpet with beer gurgling from your lips, degree or not.

2003-12-30 | 7:16 p.m.
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