hope is the new loss
call it just one more day still not thinking about you glowing without your lightlife i keep keep falling and you're never holding the blanket anymore... so it's different if i'm lonely, they say it's extra if i'm trying not to breathe, trying not to sleep tonight is not the time to be here, or anywhere else without you, and your changing single malt stares johnny walker logic takes you back to me. so i've been steady sick since monday hoping it wouldn't have to be this way, here you never add me up to anything. where is the math of you? and where can i find the soul that let's me dry this age old sweat from my brow i know that somewhere now, you're falling asleep and something tells me, i won't be in your dreams, anymore or ever again so i'm careful not to be thinking clearly, if it's what you want what you need. helpless, if you care wanting, wishing, payoff was a grand street excuse to cry over you, now without you. and your coldheart kama sutra lifestyle eyes armsstretched, legs above your head where's the truth in you? a little less than this, i say nothing changes me like you. nothing saves me from you, see-through nightie on the floor, see through you, my eyes dim adjust to dark hopeless, if you know me at all anymore lantern leaves me cold staring without you still isn't the same as staring before you since you the wind is never never trying hard to go past. there's nothing in your diary you never even scrawled there your dreams are locked away now nothing left to talk about you have dreams of letting us fly south of you it's colder than ever parkbirds go now hands on a counter, i can catch you crying now little finicky livewire girl you haven't thighs eneough for me now handful of chips meals wirtten on scraps of paper, you never know, what you'll eat, right? and it's different 'cus i'm not waiting it's different 'cus you left me all awake your hands can't reach me anymore. i love you like acid rain, now leafing through pages i won't throw away but only glance at once a year. you keep me for no more thoughts, tell the world you miss me love me so terribly much forgiveness is not like a disease you have and nothing, now here. got dreamless if you want it got sleepless if you care, and no one knows as much as you about the sound of my breathing but you can't help but stare can't help but stare i hope the view is good, this time. so i save you one more laugh drive past your door. you wanted nothing. you wanted nothing. and now you have it, angel of the soft light, glowing like a sandstorm, stealing souls from everyone you meet. you had every dream to sell, now nothing but a daycare job, and tell them not to drink too much, or anything, at all. and it's hopeless 'cus you don't know you always did. you can still paint any picture for me. sell me any painting from the shore, waste any large amount of time, not telling me everything. i saw you that way going over not as well as you wanted. hold on to anything left to hold on to...your ship's coming, your ships coming in. and hope is the new loss me the world stopped listening when we talked whoever wanted them to see? whoever thought we'd have pulled through? give them what they want, dream-baby without a cure for wanting, whatever you want is fine with me, now. i know you'll always be there one last word away a number in my palm. and when you're back when you're back they'll see it through see you through. madness is your playtoy when you wake your crawling from a moutain of dead souls and dead eyes pulling people from their freeway coffins and setting it all ablaze. we'll never be the same till you.
2003-05-02 | 7:10 p.m.
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