june miller and how it gets down

a couple of days ago i came across some pictures of june miller in her 70's and it got me thinking about her about her myth her way the way they all (so many) fell apart over her. anyway, she looked happy in these pictures happy as can be, in fact and it really got me down. like i'd just been told i had terminal cancer or that i was being evicted from my home with no prospects for anywhere to live ever again. couldn't say why. i was actually baffled by it. i couldn't place how i was so affected by soemthing unnamable that sprung forth from seeing these pictures of a lady i've never met. the funny thing was that i couldn't get out of it. i just kept sliding back down into that bummer phase without, as far as i could tell, any real reason for it.
it took me three days to figure out why. today, about an hour ago, i figured it out. i don't really feel like talking about it, though.

2004-11-30 | 2:51 p.m.
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