a new day's resolution

outside, it is raining. you know the sound when you hear it. the sound of water pounding on pavement, into flower beds, across fields, onto passing cars. when it happens, you think: "oh, it's raining." you think of leaving work and having to trudge through the puddles on the sidewalk, in the parking lot. you think of having to run to your car and from your car, into your house.

when i hear it, i think "oh, it's raining." and i think about what needs to be covered as i leave so that it will not be damaged. i think about driving through rush hour traffic, city cars moving slower than photosynthesis, the perils of getting home. i do not think of how wonderful it feels to shake your head about when it's soaked through with rain. i do not think about how nice it feels to have the sky dropping bits of water onto me as i pass from one dreary working world into another homelife world. i think: "oh, it's raining."

but why do i do that? when did i lose my awe for this world? it isn't that the world isn't awe-inspiring anymore, it's just that i've stopped bothering to look.

so today, as i listen to the rain pounding down from the sky that looms above, i will not think "oh, it's raining." i will think "holy fuck! water is falling out of the sky!" and try to remember just how crazy it is that it's true.

2004-06-09 | 4:52 p.m.
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