sweetheart: loneliness

closing your eyes is so subtle empty morning light you'll be free sweetheart: loneliness, and figure it out yourself this time: let's not play the sun dancer landscape rearrangement, fend shui of the soul and let's just mean it better next time somehow (even every lie you told) get's tiresome and moving throught eh night with so much grace and clicking leaves just burst to puddles abnd we are drenched more and more these days: i want something less than anything (more than you) and sugary kisses not alone not alone (you're always alone, even in public) but you drop the bomb on me---

and soon a rare thing comes and looking at you is not so difficult now, right? mirror-stand watch teh gold pain chip fromt eh sides of your life and find our silver paneled life is turning now to rust (more like an animal than anything else) and we're so lonely so lonely sometimes we'll take any rainy day and hang it out to dry (you and me) or someone else will drown beneath it---just watch just watch: your breaths are slowing and one day soon (a decade maybe two maybe tommorrow), you'll wake armless and worried over the tone of your skin (cobwebs in your womb and such) and you'll be only as lonely as ou've made the world sometimes only as cold and restless as you've earned, you smile through our writhing, delilah, worse somehow (something tells me she loved him) and however you make it pretty ---- no more christmas light fatnastic and you are just laying there cold alone and uglier than ever.

no hard feelings though, right?

so now, here and the happening you bound skyscrapers and giggle at their shattered lives: you made that happen, you did and i can see me, years and years away seeing a broken man in a bar or on the street and i could tell the way you rip thier hair out (ulcer queen, you give them) and leave them begging for just one last breath and someday suddenly as anything i'lll point it out and you'll be known, the world over for what you sometimes are.

last night dreamt you came back (seductress eyes) and took the last of the proofs i have for your existence and leaned into me breathless and wanton i spread lips and waned mytself from you knowing the c olor of your passing nights and how you happened, you break armies over yourself and laughing, wander off into the sun

soon, sweetheart: loneliness you'll be wondering how many good ones you left lost behind you...

2004-02-26 | 9:27 p.m.
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