would, not if (song for lark)
i found you in the stock footage and held you higher than the sun, washed you clean and frail, nothing else comes close, to your wrinkled clothes at dawn and squinted stares, and eyespan wars, there is still a few things left in your sight, now but now there's nowhere left to point your two-handed hate pistol or to hold you up dear, i sent the moon into orbit for you. and left turned right, nightime turns to acetalene wounds and then the firemen of your eyes swallow me whole, now it's nothing, now you're nothing a picture on a wall, in a pocket, wallet, seal on a stamp every letter i ever wrote was to you every word that ever crept long from my arching body came somehow from you. so now i have everything i never wanted, world at the tips of my mind wisdom to strangle long notions and you you gave it to me. and every gift, every look was one more reason so many fucking reasons left haunting on the porch and i can't i can't keep driving straight and looking ahead and standing beneath endless new shower faucets and sink fixtures knowing how you would have thought it should have been arranged just so lost to a stolen moment in time worthless, if you wait and waiting only proves there's nothing left of you to hold. and nowhere left to think of you that i haven't already been through, doors locked like madness and here nothing grows a tired earth, withered plants, stereo lodged at ten point two world transfixed waiting to see, what might become of me. so it's a life lived falling down staircases and misplacing non-existant rage and i find, nothing now hate is a dream we never had but there's you, tender little demoness of a thousand tears and lives a wreckage behind her always staring into the sun. and laying beneatht he stars was never so much fun. i know a place now, a anme for every instant we never had ever had every life we meant to so much to live through make it through i hope you're still shimmery. i know you're still shimmery. you were always shimmery and new but damn, you fuck fuck like a vampire working crowd control and no one in your world leaves soul intact. listless left for you and now, jesus, who puts humpty back together? and the harsh knob twists in deeper into the bedroom wound wars left without a cry to shake loose from skin smooth with sweat and need, where do they hide the rest of you? tragi-comedy girl and her entourage of lost souls lost lives worlds in ruin and it's you, about you everyhting left is not what is could be. hell, you could save us with a thought. make it all run thin, blood run dry, tears wept from our eyes minds, nothing else would ever need to smile like you. give me ten instants and i'll tell you why it never gets old to jabber jabber on. and you make me you make me listen to sap shit and waste time. so look here, i know you're seeing this, out there in the ether eyes barely shut, another world building thick and coming home was never an option for you. home was never the place to be. i see you now, tangerine heart soul queen, all your damaged goods, all your squandered could-have-been long list lifetimes left on doorsteps but i'de have i'de have followed you into hell.
2003-05-04 | 10:02 p.m.
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